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Do the gods felt the pain of losing someone too? Or they knew all along that we're stupid enough to understand that love is not meant to be locked in our hands We thought we are capable of holding a Tesseract; Yet to enter another dimension—without realising that we are toxic, virulently noxious we suffocated souls we killed universes that we have lost count of our murders Due to our greed of time, of space and aether Without our cognizance, We have been a black matter to a galaxy—a vacuum sucking life For we don't know how to smile on our reflections We destroy bodies that accepted our flaws Again, we just ruined another cosmos When the gods throw the dice, Freeing love from its cage Knowing that love can create or destroy We have chosen the second option Given the choice, we still chose to wreak havoc on For we don't know that love should also be As ephemeral and as fleeting as our existence We failed to realize we couldn't own even the quark...

Clouds are painted in the skies Above this canvas surrounding us—the seas Your back facing me From where I stood, I could see your soul so free A smile curved in your once blank face You're looking at a pile of blocks—a cowrie shell stuck in the middle of these You must be thinking, love did this Love once killed the freedom that we've lost for years Maybe it was the sun—but no, It was the clouds; the heat was weak In a place where all the mornings, all the afternoons and all the nights blow the same breeze You are the light of ease You are the star so bright and full of bliss Amidst the tropical storm, hurricane or any event of another earth drift You—with all your hidden songs of heartache will come back here in this shore On a Sunday morning and once again listen To the song of the seas Whispering an old tune of sea breeze And again will utter another prayer for a love That, at last, knew what it meant to be free You will always remind me of the sea Of t...

The music doesnt sound so peaceful tonight The air, the humid, the atmosphere-- They all seemed to be in pain They're cold Every one outside these four walls were right I am not the same as I was I'm still lost, forlorn in this light Nights before exist only for a shot glass Wrecked,I picked up the spoon Then stir the mixed up evening without stars These walls I've set so high--      are suffocating the life that I enjoyed for a long long time Why is there a need to kill the hope Even these senses can't be trusted alone with a rope For September just ended but this month is still fucked I am still stuck in this rut My hands were shaking--feeling my joints crushing My back is disappointing me I can't feel, everything is a blur My eyes are filled with words need to be written again Tell me now, did I deserve to be in this abyss Look me in the eyes Tell me  now, did i deserve to be this broken? Like all your promises

I want to disappear like this day that would only live for 24 hours I'd like to experience what it feels to be wanted, pursued I'm dreaming of a love that will stay —that will sit beside me in the darkest of my days and in the absurdity of my mind; through the silence of the solitude I've dealt within me for the longest time In the darkest of my days, Can you please stay? because I might not survive another blow Of the winds that comes not by itself alone, —but with hurricanes and tropical storms Please stay with me in this shed underneath that cloud which brought all the rains Just sit with me in this cold cold night Let your presence be my light in the end of this tunnel I apologize but I ought not to leave here for tonight In the absurdity of my mind, Stranger, would you please stay? Even just for another minute, because I am not thinking clearly the days that passed It feels like my inner circuits got disrupted my bones fractured, my bone marrows w...

In our parallel universe, I hope this letter will reach you, my young self. Being 20 is hard but wherever you are now, please know that I'm proud of the choices we made. Things will not going to be easy along the way but I assure you you're evolving. It's okay to get hurt. It's okay to acknowledge that we can't be the perfect person we wish to be. Nobody is perfect in the first place. Were meant to make mistakes, as humans we are. You are a fragment—part of this flawed universe and you are essential. There might be days when we'll think giving up is the only way out but please hold on. You need to realize that life will test us constantly but always keep in mind that as long as you have air in your alveoli, you are alive. You will survive. Never ever be afraid to make mistakes and take the path you wish to take. You will learn by other people's examples but you should keep in mind that in order for you to apply it, you should DO it. There's no easy w...

I'm missing you maybe it's because of your words or worse You told me how you'd hold my hand in places I am afraid to set forth to I am trying to be at peace with myself Your silence is continuously crushing my bones In the middle of these seas keeping us apart I could only sing a song out of tune I miss your voice, your interest —your enthusiasm I felt in our every phone call Before, your inhale excites me Your breath made me believe I am worthy Undoubtedly, I will miss our victories But now, YOU won the game of love Leaving without closure, cornering me good in this dark abyss Wondering how to escape these traps in my way I could only want to die and weep in the meantime This, too, will pass You shall follow your passion on the winning streak Exploring with music, smoke, cracked nails, sweat and heat In the journey forward— where your feet wanted to brake Perhaps s omeday, I could find myself a way out In this maze you put me in Without a guide but ...

You're hard to love Even on easy days You're always busy and on the rush When I'm on my bed and you're all I want to touch Perhaps it's the time, distance or everything within us Sometimes, I'd ask myself if I am someone you'd like to be with til the last breathe you'd inhale, is it me you trust? I have never felt what it is to be loved without cease For I could feel you today then tomorrow you'd  act like a breeze That comes and go whenever you please Did I ever entertained you, at least?

Ever heard about what Dr. Seuss think of love? For him, it is when you cannot fall asleep— Reality has finally become better than the dreams inside our heads Funny how horrible this force could be   yet we carelessly show our vulnerable selves as we open our hearts risking our own sanity— our mind, barenaked through the possibility that love can get inside us and mess us up As for Lao Tzu, Love gives us courage while being loved gives us strength Profound words from a guru mouth That I would never understand until I realize— I loved you the same way that I learned how to ride a bike Scared, but reckless Riding, before looking Leaping, before deciding Without training wheels or elbow pads —so my scars can tell the story of how I fell for you I want you to know that Never will I ever demand neither for gold around the neck nor diamond in my fingers I love you enough to yearn for you —to be with me to see the sunrise; sit in silen...

I can't explain how intense this longing feels I want to hug you baby for you are the safest place I know I want to kiss you so hard as if there would be no tomorrow You have no idea how heavy my chest feels right now, love. You're such a dream, my sanity.