beautiful sunsets need cloudy skies

I want to disappear like this day that would only live for 24 hours I'd like to experience what it feels to be wanted, pursued I'm dreaming of a love that will stay —that will sit beside me in the darkest of my days and in the absurdity of my mind; through the silence of the solitude I've dealt within me for the longest time In the darkest of my days, Can you please stay? because I might not survive another blow Of the winds that comes not by itself alone, —but with hurricanes and tropical storms Please stay with me in this shed underneath that cloud which brought all the rains Just sit with me in this cold cold night Let your presence be my light in the end of this tunnel I apologize but I ought not to leave here for tonight In the absurdity of my mind, Stranger, would you please stay? Even just for another minute, because I am not thinking clearly the days that passed It feels like my inner circuits got disrupted my bones fractured, my bone marrows w...

In our parallel universe, I hope this letter will reach you, my young self. Being 20 is hard but wherever you are now, please know that I'm proud of the choices we made. Things will not going to be easy along the way but I assure you you're evolving. It's okay to get hurt. It's okay to acknowledge that we can't be the perfect person we wish to be. Nobody is perfect in the first place. Were meant to make mistakes, as humans we are. You are a fragment—part of this flawed universe and you are essential. There might be days when we'll think giving up is the only way out but please hold on. You need to realize that life will test us constantly but always keep in mind that as long as you have air in your alveoli, you are alive. You will survive. Never ever be afraid to make mistakes and take the path you wish to take. You will learn by other people's examples but you should keep in mind that in order for you to apply it, you should DO it. There's no easy w...

I'm missing you maybe it's because of your words or worse You told me how you'd hold my hand in places I am afraid to set forth to I am trying to be at peace with myself Your silence is continuously crushing my bones In the middle of these seas keeping us apart I could only sing a song out of tune I miss your voice, your interest —your enthusiasm I felt in our every phone call Before, your inhale excites me Your breath made me believe I am worthy Undoubtedly, I will miss our victories But now, YOU won the game of love Leaving without closure, cornering me good in this dark abyss Wondering how to escape these traps in my way I could only want to die and weep in the meantime This, too, will pass You shall follow your passion on the winning streak Exploring with music, smoke, cracked nails, sweat and heat In the journey forward— where your feet wanted to brake Perhaps s omeday, I could find myself a way out In this maze you put me in Without a guide but ...

You're hard to love Even on easy days You're always busy and on the rush When I'm on my bed and you're all I want to touch Perhaps it's the time, distance or everything within us Sometimes, I'd ask myself if I am someone you'd like to be with til the last breathe you'd inhale, is it me you trust? I have never felt what it is to be loved without cease For I could feel you today then tomorrow you'd  act like a breeze That comes and go whenever you please Did I ever entertained you, at least?

Ever heard about what Dr. Seuss think of love? For him, it is when you cannot fall asleep— Reality has finally become better than the dreams inside our heads Funny how horrible this force could be   yet we carelessly show our vulnerable selves as we open our hearts risking our own sanity— our mind, barenaked through the possibility that love can get inside us and mess us up As for Lao Tzu, Love gives us courage while being loved gives us strength Profound words from a guru mouth That I would never understand until I realize— I loved you the same way that I learned how to ride a bike Scared, but reckless Riding, before looking Leaping, before deciding Without training wheels or elbow pads —so my scars can tell the story of how I fell for you I want you to know that Never will I ever demand neither for gold around the neck nor diamond in my fingers I love you enough to yearn for you —to be with me to see the sunrise; sit in silen...

I can't explain how intense this longing feels I want to hug you baby for you are the safest place I know I want to kiss you so hard as if there would be no tomorrow You have no idea how heavy my chest feels right now, love. You're such a dream, my sanity.

If I only have few minutes to live, I'd stare at your face while you sleep. I'd spent my last minutes with the thought of you in mind. It'd be a peaceful farewell.