beautiful sunsets need cloudy skies

I want to sit next to you I just wanted to With silence between our inches With loudest of my heartbeat and sullen of yours I want to know how are you Then sit next to you I will ask you with words Afterwards, owl's voice will be heard I want to know why you're late Then sit next to you And comfort you if there's wrong Be happy with you if some things went right I want to talk with you Then sit next to you It will be so fine if you'll leave You trained me then; Now, I'm so used to I want you to teach me more of Rubik's Then sit next to you I have already knew how it worked Will you teach me how yours will?

I know that you're just there In the silence of your scream In the noises of your peace You are waiting to be loved Like the love you've given, You are now pierced with syringes to keep you alive Like the love you wanted, He was now taking your future bride And like old tales in contemporary times You are in the deepest heart sorrow Denoted with the simplest metaphors But still you're impossible to the known You have given too much And you have been so exhausted Let me give you some rest And wait. And I tell you, I might be tempted I might look for the known I might seek skinny affections from him And I might not wait But no I know that it will take time And those times were long to pass And while waiting, I might weep Maybe, you'll find her on your way And I will still wait I have gone so long just to see you Though you loved her so I will still wait. Really hard it is to find someone as you The way was ruthless and hard and ugly But if y...

Wag ka nang mag-alala, takot na 'ko Hindi na ulit ako magnanakaw ng tingin sa'yo Dahil...dahil...likas na sa panahong ito ang paglayo At anong haba man ng mga usapan, matatapos din sa dulo Anong saya man ng takbo ng ating paglalandian, magsasawa rin ang isa —maghahanap pa rin ng iba, dahil hindi ako 'siya' ,di ba? Wag kang mag-alala, takot na 'ko Hindi na ulit ako sadyang lilingon sa dako mo Dahil...dahil...masakit, na sa tuwing haharap, iba na naman ang nakatawag ng interes mo At anong ganda man ng suot ko, kukupas na rin ang kulay dahil ilang araw lang ang bibilangin para mawala ang tingkad nito para sayo Wag ka nang mag-alala, takot na 'ko Hindi na magsisimula ng paksa at sasagutin lang ng "Ewan ko" Dahil... dahil...magmumukha na naman akong tanga sa'yo At sukdulan man ang katangahan na 'to, walang epekto dahil sa mahal mo, mahal ko Wag kang mag-alala, takot na 'ko Hindi na kailangang sagutin ang naipong mga tanong ko Dahil...dahil....

Ikot.Pihit patagilid.Tingin sa kanan at kaliwa Tingin sa dako niya at niya at niya Tingnan ang kanyang kabuuan. Sumulyap sa dako kung saan Titigan ang bawat kulay na bubuo sa katauhan niya Pero mabubuo pa nga ba? Di ako marunong magmanipula At wala na akong balak buuin pa Sa kalagitnaan ng pagkalito ko sa pagkatao mo Doon ko nakita ang totoong kinaroroonan mo Di ka nga magbabago dahil ikaw ang sentro At nakakaawa ang posisyon mo Naikot na nilang lahat ang mundong kinabibilangan mo Di ka ba nag-asam ng mas maayos na persona mo sa sarili mong kwento? Katorse ka nung nabigyan kita ng regalo Rubiks yun.Alam ko Di kasi ako marunong gumamit Kaya naisip kong ipaubaya sa bagay —na hindi bagay na aking nagamit. Oo.Aking nagamit.Di ka nga pala bagay Kaya kung ayaw mong magiba, Subukan mong mag-iba nang maiba Sa pagbuo ng isang kwento sa isang bagay na gulo Mahirap umpisahan kasi baka kusang gumuho Pag tinamaan ng lintik ang bugso,wag kang papatama sa santol,tol Dahil bawat matang nakak...

Sa ilang libong araw kong pamamalagi sa mundo Namulat ako sa isang lugar kung saan lahat nagbabago At tanging yaring pagbabago ang tanging permanenteng siklo Sa araw-araw man na nilikha ng Diyos ang tao Magulo ang mundo, base sa pagtingin ng mata Lahat ng maaaring pag-awayan, papatulan ng mga walang pinag-aralan Lahat ng maaring siraan, sisiraan ng mga di tumitingin sa salamin Lahat ng nais pintasan, pipintasan dahil mali base sa kanilang paningin Pilipino nga naman, tinuringang pag-asa ng mga naunang pantas Ngayon,itong mga Pilipino'y ikinakahiya ang kanilang antas Hindi na kinakitaan ng mga binibigkas na sinusumpaang mga panata Purong opinyong mapagmataas ang mababatid sa kanilang bawat salita Filipino ang wikang kinagisnan mula pagsilang Kasa-kasama sa paghakbang mula kuna hanggang sa ilang Filipino na lingua franca na sinasalita ninuman Hindi binibigyang halaga dahil sabi nga nila "Filipino? Alam na natin yan" Hanggang itong ...

I'm tired asking for apologies I'm not interested in sorry-s Too often, I haven't done anything Now, I don't want to get the blame —         the usual thing I did just to make them free.

Unusual. Summer is the season; I missed the rain Perhaps, it will come in no time It's just hard to be emotional when the Sun's scintillating But though it's hard, Cries are cries and hues are because of you. You'll come back,that's your lie last April.

Using the busy word for an excuse Isn't an excuse to make me like a fool,waiting It's too easy to reprimand "Don't wait.I'll never come" Simple as that. I will understand Using alibis such as "I've forgot to drop by" Is as shitty as "I have forgotten my name" All I ask is a sort of postponed update Simple as that.I will understand Using another scenario for telling a lie Isn't a lie for me cause I'm so gullible, I'd believe it's true For it's easier to believe than overthink Simple as that. Did I really understood? Damn. Please don't make me wait for forever Man, I'm so used in writing in vain I've already varicose veins standing still to where you left me; still looking for the signs of you But, the hell, how many more hours am I gonna depend on you? For Pete's sake, can't you please be true? Did the girl you've seen on your vision was still me? Or you've fell out of th...

This is another story of you. Myriads of poetries were already written by me. Almost half of it was for you. But you never read even one of it.  The last time I wrote was about having a period to all the semicolons that I have made. A period. I mean an ending, I thought. You are already immortal. (Well, thanks for me for making an everlasting piece.).But your name has always been a part of my piece Well, perhaps, Newton’s Third Law of Motion is not applicable in liking someone. Okay, I do not want to have deeper meaning. It is not yet love. I know that my pituitary gland releases hormones that sometimes become imbalanced. Perhaps, I could blame all my  hormone-producing glands for liking you. It is normal. Normal in my stage. Normal in my age. I hope so. I think even the -9.8 meter per second per second acceleration due to gravity is not responsible in making people fall in love. But thank you for existing so I can like you and because of that, I became a literary warr...

After the dusk,darkness swallowed his might In the vast cosmic sky,he withered life As if I am being stabbed by a knife My ears can't hear sighs,but thine will still fight His words lingered in thoughts; I guess he's right Even eons passed I'll suffer strife Seemed to lose the chance of being thou wife Letting my fate a pitfall song in night - Heart's reparation can't settled by thy gold Even succored, thine prisoned love in seal Ill-fated fortune just played my empire Winter snows rushed to palm downed in cold Been trifled for times these tears might reveal In valiant's verdict to fade passion's fire.

Maybe,your name is the only thing I knew about you But that doesn't have a difference compared to the people around me It's just the same thing I just knew their names but I can learn what they've been  through,same with you—some sort of psychology. The only difference was that, I don't know if you are really existing.

Can you not be mainstreamed? You're not like those monseurs to lead Forcing the maturity will not make you man on creed It's ladder you must pass or stairs you need to mead Maturity needs to be level For not whatever your perspective must  bevel You'll probably end up a rebel Shattered by the urge to unwit the riddle For many years I've existed in delusion Thine eyes were roughen by abrasion It's as if I'm one with the erosion of vision Never happened due to the world's constant elevation Bearded am I in the midst of a silly earthlings Though ignorance filled them;not they notice their nose crinkling? They only saw thy need to grow nevermind the crisis blinging For whoever, to live is not a obsure decision to take but illusion singing Fooled by men in ties—empowered These people only live for the position drawered So be it for you not be cringed in society with hands wired To do what they dictated in sullen disregard.

Alas onse nang magising nang may biglang pumasok sa aking kamalayan Linggo na rin pala mula noong huli kitang nakausap Nag-isip ako nang bahagya at nagtanong sa kaibuturan ng kukote "Ilang katulad mo pa ba ang dadating at matatapos din?" Mistulan akong nakatanga na naman sa kawalan Nang biglang nag-ring ang alarm ng cellphone ko na inakala kong naiwan Alas -dose.Isang oras din pala akong nag-isip kung kailan mo kaya papakawalan ang nakaraan Kailan mo kaya papalayain ang sarili mo sa isang ilusyon na hindi na matutupad kailanpaman Siguro,maiwan na kita sa pinili mong paghintuan May buhay pa akong haharapin kinabukasan Patawad kung hindi na kita masasamahan sa inyong hintayan Masyado pa kong maraming problema at alam kong kakayanin mo kung sa pangalawang pagkakataon,ika'y kanyang iiwanan Sasakay na ako sa susunod na istasyon,paalam na Sa EDSA,ayaw kong makitrapik at makigulo pa Hindi ko kasi hilig ang gawain mong ipagsiksikan ang sarili sa iba Hindi ko gusto...

Sa internet pinakamadaling makahanap ng kaibigan Yung kahit hindi mo kilala nang personalanan Pero masasabihan mo ng problema at mararaingan Kaso,ang problema,di mo malalaman kung hanggang kailan Pag may nakilala kang kung sinuman sa social site Maglaro ka lang,natutunan ko via justifiable right Kung seseryosohin mo kasi ang mga pag-uusap niyo with light Magniningning lang ang luha mo nang very bright Ilang beses na ba akong nagkaroon ng mga ganyan Mayroong Italian na walang Diyos May Brazilian na repormista at leftist May Libyan na OB-Gyn May mga Pilipinong ateista At mga Pilipinong galit sa administrasyon,Dutertard daw ako Walang nagtagal ni isa at wala na kong balak seryosohin ang mga tao sa media Dapat naman kasi talagang wala kang inaasahang kung anuman Maglaro ka lang. Marami ngang naglalaro lang pati utak mo napaglaruan Yung isa pala,isa siya sa pinakatanga. Papakamatay na yata, iniwan daw siya,di naman naging sila Nasiraan na. Lakas na nga ng tama ko sa ka...

The problem there is Is the presence of the past you can't release Illusions filled your mind but not at lease Leaving you flabbergasted by reminisce I know you're far be it from her to complain Though she left you shattered in vain She's all that was yours not stained Two years passed, still unmoved by promised restrain Imagining men that can't be moved Is the thing that's why stupidity was been proved It's also the reason why people tend to act rude They're miserably faked and mind was delude Pity young lad, I know you've got brain And I pitied you though you have all the riches of the rain I thought you've matured but sorry you're still entrain Time might kill you or first annihilate your heart-in-sane.

       Dumako ang mata niya sa relos.Alas 3:00 na ng madaling araw.Masaya niyang sinalubong ang ngiti ng kaibigan.Matagal na rin nang huli silang magkita.Dekada na ang lumipas.      Ngunit ang ngiti nito'y tila may pagbabadya.Kumaripas ito papunta sa kanya hawak sa kamay ang isang kalibre-45.Sa takot ay napatakbo siya. Takbo. Hangos. Takbo. Hangos.      Kaunting pagkakamali lang ay mapapatay siya ng kaibigan.At napatid siya ng lubid. Nang may pumutok. Krriiinnnnggggggggg.........Kringggggg...      Nag-alarm na ang cellphone niya eksaktong alas-2:30 ng madaling araw,nag-ayos na siya upang pumasok na sa trabaho.      Pero kumukulit pa rin sa kanyang utak ang kaibigang nakita sa panaginip.Mahaba-haba pa ang lalakarin niya.Mga 4 na kilometro patungong bayan.Mga alas 2:50 nang lumabas siya nang bahay at nagsimula nang maglakad.       May naaninag ...

We are just a boarder in this wide earth Without a lease or rent to pay since birth If not of you we dont own even our shirt We owe you a lot for you gave us mirth We are contemptible for all infamies we had brought No wonder we must endure hurts and mulct We're sorry for all of faults And we'll be right here to protect you,till our bloods on clot Mother Earth, being taken cared of is what you deserve And its the thing we aren't gonna curb Just please let us be your vanguard to serve Give us another chance to take care of you down on your very nerve We are contemptible for all infamies we had brought No wonder we must endure hurts and mulct We're sorry for all of faults And we'll be right here to protect you,till our bloods on clot Mother Earth, being taken cared of is what you deserve And its the thing we aren't gonna curb Just please let us be your vanguard to serve Give us another chance to take care of you down on your very nerve And to ...

And show the world what you're like You're like an unfinished masterpiece The kind that I would not dare to polish For when this idiocy ends, I would die Though I don't like to but, If you left me like this on purpose And so I never knew you,did I? I can't remember because I never knew

And now, I am feeling the warmth,again Don't know what to say For words were now useless All I know is that, Words, words were truly alive on the tongue, in the head Warm, beating, frantic, winged; music and blood But then I was young I know the plans; how to-s and why so-s The home, the books and the bikes were on the list The course,the degree and where to go were on my bucket list Setting aside what to do when some sun stroke my iced core And just wanting to be the air that inhabits you for a moment only I would like to be that unnoticed and that necessary There are worse things than being alone But it often takes decades to realize this Most often when you do,it's too late And there's nothing worse than too late

Darling, do not weep for you are not a disappointment You did great because you don't do things based on their satisfaction All you've done were for you; if your work don't have a single value for them, Do not shed a tear Your tears were too precious just to fall for an undiscussed experiment Grades were just numbers and it must never define you And no,not because you've got 60 doesn't mean you are a noob and that you made no effort In fact, you've given so much, you've had tears so much, you've been pained so much That only understanding and consideration can see how many pails of sweat have escaped your restless body "What is essential is invisible to the eye," remember that Grades were made by a singled cell eukaryote -- his perception But a single human was just human bounded by his standards and ridicule He must not affect you. He's a challenge you need to win You'll get through this, I knew you did this once, make ...

I want to be like her With heart as seen on her face With joy and cheers in her every spoken word I want to be an art as her I want to know how colorful this world was for her Without a doubt, I'll surely love it there I want to be a poetry as her With a sound mind and guiltless body —where freedom existed I'll never miss every detail for I want her smile be painted in my face From this day,I'll sure do what she'll say For I know that when I do I can finally prove that not all who wander are lost Perhaps, I'll learn then how to play the cycle Until I find myself within my Personal Legend I know I'll never forget her Fridays, she's my Personal Development professor; She's Ms. Geraldine Santos

You may come back But you didn't show any attempts to do so You can lean your painful bones here But again, you insisted not to I don't know now how to read you     or if I did really knew you I can't drag you off from the insanity you are  for you want to stay to where it all start I don't have a grip on you 'cause you don't held my hands       when I reached it on you I'll leave then;

Here's the raindrops--again Made me feel insane Longing for your time Assuming things out          as if you've been mine.

You were so distant It just feels like your presence was AU-measured I could not help but wear an uncertain smile Every time they ask me,    "Are you still fine?,"

I am inutile. I cannot help it. I cannot help you change how you see me,   for that's how your eyes see I am sorry for being me.

(I am) USED IN ENDINGS PROLOGUE What is the thing that was been used in endings? Maybe you think of things such as failed relationships or broken hearts. But going literal, what we found in every sentence’s ending is a period, a dot, a point — a Tuldok. Do we ever wonder how it ended being a symbol of limitation? We often think periods as a sign of boundary—a line to end it all. But how about perceiving it the other way around? “The mystery of human existence lies not in just staying alive, but in finding something to live for.” ―  Fyodor Dostoyevsky ,  The Brothers Karamazov CHAPTER 1 by:Chritine             In a wide vastness of emptiness and darkness, wala kang ibang makikita kundi ang igloo na tinitirahan ng binatang si Tuldok. Si Tuldok ay naninirahan nang mag-isa na sumasabay lang sa flow in the soul of th...